it's been a real grand time, but i cannot help my obsession with tumblr.
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follow me there! it's a lot more fun, i promise

Namesake

Lay Me Down

You let me in cause, after all, it seemed like the right thing to do. I closed my eyes and let you fall. I wonder what you could possibly know about being down that I don't. It's been awhile since I begged for anything, but now I want more. So lay me down, I'm lonely. You don't understand me, and you never even tried to anyway. I hear you say, "It's not the same." I'm sorry, it's something I just can't explain. So shut your mouth and hold me close. We both know it's better than being alone. I don't mind killing time as long as I can't see it in your eyes.

Quick Question

Have you ever just wanted to kiss someone you're not per say attracted to, just to see what it's like as well as to gauge their reaction?
Yeah, I'm kind of feeling that right now.

I Have No Idea About What I'm Going to Wear Tonight

Tonight is Ross' crazy liquor and cheeseburger party (or something) tonight and I cannot go because I'm going to one of my BFF's birthday party. I'm still hoping I can sneak in an early appearance at the liquor party before I head out to Kits just to say hi and look hot and have the boys glare at me with lust (any attention is good attention!). I would also like to maybe hit up the mall and try and find something to wear. I WANT NEW HEELS!!!!! I wore my cute black ones for my grad ceremony on Thursday, and I forgot how much I miss wearing them (until about three hours later when the balls of my feet are aching). I also want to get another cardigan in white possibly annnnnnd I definitely need to finish laundry soon. SO MANY THINGS TO DO THIS WEEKEND! Also, my little nephew is 2 today! How crazy is that?

I'm really digging the SW music choices (anywhere from The Strokes to The Ramones to The Clash to Blue Monday to Britney Spears to PARIS HILTON???) And I just downloaded a bunch and can't stop listening to these songs which is kind of depressing I think. As well, I cannot stop listening to The Dudes who are a great, great, great Canadian band from Calgary (another good thing about Calgary, who would have thought)

Umm, so I guess that's all I want to say in this shitstorm excuse for a blog.

Oh! I got a sketch notebook yesterday and drew an octopus with pencil crayons. I like it.

So basically in closing, here is a picture of me with the Valedictorian of our grad class (we survived dinosaur class)

This Just In...

Hi, I'm Jes and I'm secretly in love with Zac Efron.

What makes me better than any other 14 year old? I have loved him since before his disney debut. Anyone remember a little show called Summerland with Aunt Becky (from Full House, duh) and Jesse McCartney? Uh yep, that cute little dude that was sometimes on the show was ZE and I had a huge seemingly creepy crush on him because I was fully thinking he was like 12 at the time (thank good he isn't!).

Speaking of ZE, I would love to see him and Vanessa Hudgens do a duet of Magic Carpet Ride. I don't even like her, and cannot stand her highpitched voice, but I still think it would be really cute and totally necessary, being Disney and all.

Just one more thing to go with this embarrassing blog:

DO ME NOW PLEASE!

These Are MY "Beauty" Must-haves

1) Johnson's Baby Oil

This stuff is the shit for mosturizer when your skin is dry. Slap it on after you get out of the shower (while you're still wet) and let it soak in, if you have the time of course. It dries non greasy and just feels delicious.

2) Schick Quattro Razors

The more blades the better! I've tried my fair share of razors, and these are the best. Even the disposable version is better than other disposable brands.

3) Dove Gentle Exfoliating Body Wash
Though I don't always use this stuff, it's awesome. I'm big on anything that exfoliates, and the smell is just really familiar to me, and what originally sold me.

4) Sally Hansen Hard As Nails

I don't wear nailpolish often (due to my stupid job), but when I do, it's always this brand. It goes on really smooth, and dries really fast. I have a delicious hot pink colour and all it needs is one coat. It's even pretty resilient with cracks and chips (which I am awful with).

I don't know what else. I'm not huge on make up, and I hate the thought of spending $20 on anything that's going to go on my face. I'm totally fine with just brushing on some bronzer and layering on the mascara.

Story of My Life

This is Earth Shattering

lover I don't have to love.

May As Well Do This Now...

Regarding my previous post, and blogging about my conflicting ideologies... I'll do that another time.

Now I just want to quickly discuss how incredibly disappointed I am in myself for letting the "Twilight World" take me over so easily. Yes, I've read the first three books, yes I'm currently in the middle of finishing the fourth (Bella's currently debating going to talk to the Volturi), yes I went out and bought the last two because I couldn't stand waiting to borrow them from my cousin. I'm so disappointed in myself, but at the same time I really don't care, these books feed me what the other types of fiction I read don't (think Coupland or Palahniuk). Pretty much I'd have to say, if you're a girl, with ANY hormones whatsoever, you will enjoy this series. Also I'm still not a huge fan of Edward, and I still hate R-Pattz. However I love Jacob, I've got some werewolf lust going on, and might I add, though I shouldn't, but I will anyways.... no, I lied. I won't go there, but I'll think about it to myself and stifle a giggle.

Werewolf lust~*~*~

This is a Reminder

***write blog about conflicting views of the world****

Today is Thursday

And I have the day off, so I've been doing laundry, and cleaning my room.

Just when I was starting to enjoy the earlier shifts at work, everything has to go and get ruined. I work the shittiest shifts all weekend, boohoo. I hate slicing bread, and I HATE running back and forth between the bakery and back cooler with racks, and of course because it's the weekend, shit is going to be busier so I'll have more bread to slice, and more racks to take back.
BOOHOOHOOHOOHOO. I mostly don't like slicing bread because it's so monotonous that my mind wanders for a good two or three hours, and it's just not a good feeling, letting my mind wander. As well, I get bread crumbs in my hair, and that's gross.

In other news...

I've officially passed my two courses, which means I graduate!! Unfortunately (for my mom at least), my plans were to leave for Calgary with Jill on the second, and my grad ceremony is on the fourth, now this wouldn't be a big deal at all, as I can come home from Calgary and pick up my diploma, but my mom is hell-bent on seeing me cross the stage, though at this point I haven't RSVP'd and my units would have to watch via closed circuit television in a classroom. I just don't see this as a big deal in my life, if anything, going to douglas was a huge 2.5 year inconvenience. I am so incredibly glad to be out of that school, so glad in fact, that I don't even care that I'll have to take highschool courses at night to upgrade my sciences so I can get into a real school... which is another issue.
Do I want to risk taking out a student loan so I can go to school in Calgary, or stay at home, live for free, and work my BUTT off so I can afford to pay my way through SFU?

PROS of going to school in calgary:
- better science program (I mean hello, I'm taking geology, no better place than the oil province of Canada)
- independence
- a chance to actually meet new people because I would have to if I wanted to survive

CONS of going to school in calgary:
- student loan I'd eventually have to pay off
- working to live (can't afford that dorm shit either way)
- I would get lonely

PROS of going to school in BC:
- live at home for free
- 20 minute commute if I go to SFU
- easier to deal with transfers
- friends

CONS of going to school in BC:
- working my butt off to afford 2-3k a semester
- finding a job that will pay me a sufficient amount, and needs to be flexible with schedules (good luck)
- program is decent
- it's almost too close to home

fudge, maybe I'll just go to UVIC, that way I still get independence, while being further from home. IDKIDKIDKIDK.

How Sick and Disturbing is This?

http://www.craigslist.org/about/best/orl/740493470.html

How much sicker and disturbing(er) is it that I would do something like that? Not with some creepy random, but like a boyfriend or something. I'd even let him play.... actually I would probably prefer that, though I do kick ass at SMB. Anyways, disgusting entry by a disgusting girl. I'm still wondering why I'm single to be quite honest. I seem like such a catch.

Goodnight internet!

These Are the Kinds of Things I Miss the Most About the Past

it's hard to enjoy yourself while bleeding out the ass says:
im guna say brb
~it's hard to enjoy yourself while bleeding out the ass says:
then youre guna say
~it's hard to enjoy yourself while bleeding out the ass says:
no deal
~it's hard to enjoy yourself while bleeding out the ass says:
and im guna say
~it's hard to enjoy yourself while bleeding out the ass says:
wait for me my love
~it's hard to enjoy yourself while bleeding out the ass says:
and you say you dont love me
~it's hard to enjoy yourself while bleeding out the ass says:
and i say our love will echo through the ages

Oh how I miss our friendship and how you were the one person I could tell anything to. Why did we let me get stupid?

BRB devising a time machine to take me back to 2004.

I Can't Believe Eating is a Sport

I bet bulimics would be great at it.

I spent last night in Kits with my favourite non-cousin cousin. We hit our guitly pleasure (which I will not name because I am incredibly embarrassed by it) and got attacked by some rank hockey dudes weilding a large trophy full of beer (which was of course slopped all over us). All night I thought about what it would be like to go out dancing with M, and decided it would be a lot of fun so when CC hit the age of majority next month I'm definitely going to go ahead and bring it up and see if it can happen, then maybe we'll get some sweet, sweet chemistry going on the dance floor.

Oh my lord, I want to love this Adam fellow (Will Work for Food) for all my life. I'm so glad he ended up with his own show after losing on The Next Food Network Star. I started watching the show I think about half way through the season and just fell in love with his personality.

I guess I have to start looking for a job tomorrow. I'm becoming excessively frustrated with my lack of shifts and spending of money. I mean, I've gone out every night since last Tuesday. This can't be good news. Plus there is stuff I would like to buy (sweatpants, jeans, old man sweaters, etc)

Is it annoying how my blogs don't follow a common theme? I would probably get annoyed by it. Oh well.

PS the MLE is frightening, and what is probably more frightening is the fact that some of these people have groupies. I don't understand how someone can eat 45 slices of pizza in 10 minutes. Ugh. Puke.

And an Update on Those Cupcakes...

I think they were a big hit. I think the server really enjoyed them, as well as everyone else. Yay baking

Revelations #2

You know shit's a bad idea when Johnny is drunk enough to have sex with me but still wouldn't touch those girls. We're just trying to look out for you bro.
In other news, it's 2:36am and all I can think about right now is some d-bag who will be in Calgary within the next month and how he is amazing and doesn't love me. QQ. I will survive, and also most likely, if at all possible, get the job done when I make my return.

Calgary Girls, lock your boyfriends up, Jes is coming back to town.

Umm also, next time I go to Calgary, I'm going to try really hard to do a bunch of touristy things if I can afford it (hello Zoo and Calgary Tower, and Calgary Science world and FUCK YA DRUMHELLER). Also, I want to hit up Red Deer for a day or something, idk.


uuuuuuughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh blogssszzzzzzssss

I Made BEER CUPCAKES!!

Yay for shitty newspapers giving me awesome recipes! These brownies I made from scratch using Guinness (a meal within a dessert!) I think they're pretty darn good.


Here's a picture pre-icing (which I can't say I'm too much of a fan of. Cream cheese icing should be reserved for carrot cake).





Umm, what else is new...
I'm going to go see Vagrants on Parade play tonight at the Bourbon, that should be good. I'm bringing my cupcakes there so they can eat them and make fun of me and tell me how shitty they are. Love you boys. I'm excited to see how the band sounds with Graham playing his little drum deeler.

Confession #2

Sometimes I want to write really personal stuff in this blog, but then I remember that there are some weird creepy people (I'm pointing my finger at you, Stu) who read it and thus I have to keep it all shut up inside. Maybe I will go back to writing in my old blog for all my ~*serious*~ posts because no one knows about it/remembers it, hell I can't even remember the password half the time. Oh well, it's always better to keep feelings/thoughts pent up inside anyways. AMIRITE?

In other news, I saw HM tonight and I cried a little. It was touching disney as always and I am liking her voice more and more. I don't know what else to say, so good night, and have some jesorilla!

I hate my teeth and the hollows under my eyes. Good night internets!

Well This is Interesting...

Today was the only day I work this week. This means I don't work til at least Sunday, and though it sucks for the money side, I'm really tempted to just pack up and go somewhere for a few days. However, there's a bunch of stuff happening this week that I'd really like to attend so I guess my dreams will have to wait for another weird work week.

Things I'm looking forward to this week:

• Glass Candy on Wednesday (major drink drank drunk times)


• VOP show @ the Bourbon on Friday, I think I'm more stoked about this because I was promised a ride


• This gorgeous weather is supposed to prevail for a few days so maybe I'll end up downtown walking the Seawall (wouldn't that be nice)


• Gym every day! My excuse normally is that I'm too tired after work (which is pretty fair considering the stuff I do there), so this week, NO EXCUSES!

I want to have sex with Natalie Dee

Her comics are the stories of my life.

PS UGHKFGJLKFjsdlfkjflkjdslfjdlfjdslfjslkfsdlfjlkjflsdkjflksdjlkjfslkdjfsd back pain.

Hmm...

These are things I find quite attractive about the other sex

• glasses
• dark hair
• dark eyes
• tallness
• EYEBROWS!!
• shoes
• sense of humour
• music taste
• musical ability

Boys, take note: Glasses increase your attractiveness ten-fold.

24 was intense tonight, House is going crazy, I like Stu, he brings the lawlzies. I have nothing good to blog about ever. Oh well, it's better than studying.

Drink Drank Drunk

Hehehehehe.
I was up at 4am for work this morning. I made donuts, it was disgusting. Lard is one of the sickest things ever. LOVE INJECTING THEM THOUGH!! Now I'm all "but I am le tired" (Fire ze missiles!)
/watched the end of the world.

Open Letter

I think I just caught a second wind of drunkenness. Yep, worst blog entry ever, so here's a picture of a cat in a wig to make up for it.


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i dnt mnd y ndr m skn
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Quick Entry

I drank white wine last night, it was the first time in a very long time. I plan on drinking my growers tonight. I want to watch the boys play Resident Evil 5. Yes, this is what I dream of doing when I could be out drinking anywhere tonight. I'm lazy and don't want to hit up downtown. Just give me a house and a comfortable place to sit and drank.


PS, Sloan is awesome and when I was younger I always got them confused with The Strokes. I know... I know.

Hehehehehehe.

I love corny things like this.

Hi!

It actually feels like spring. I did my psych homework and actually understood it without doing any reading into the chapter on how to do the math or anything (woo!). I was originally scheduled to work 14 hours this week, but I took up two extra shifts. Holla @ time and a half on friday. Holla @ last day of classes on Thursday. Also, why does it seems that everyone is already out of classes/will be by tuesday? This is unfair. At least my finals are in the first week of finals so I am free after the 17th!!!

I just cleaned my kitchen. I'm such a good daughter (ha. ha. ha.). I still want to try and save up for my roady trip in the summer with the units, but I also really would like to hit up Calgary in May (awwhh yaaa. So glad no one knows what that awwhh yaaa is in regards to), but I guess if Jill does make it home this week, it'll suffice, though I know it won't. I want my self esteem to rise three-fold.

I'm so boring, my blog entries always suck. Need more drama in my life.
Also readers (if there are any of you...), how do you feel about the Dig Magritte deeler I have on the side? I'm totally feeling it. I loves me some Magritte.

One last thing, I can drink next weekend. HELL YA!!! It's been a long hard road and all I want is some red wine.

Confession #1

Sometimes when I'm work doing a repetative task I put myself in scenerios where I meet a famous star, or singer, or what have you, that I'm not really huge into, but I know one of my friends is and in this scenerio, I'll talk to them like they're just a normal person, or give them an honest truth about their capabilities and they'll love me for it and I'll go home feeling awesome. Then I go to whoever is in love with that person and tell them of the day I had and they'll be so jealous, and even worse, be mad because I didn't get an autograph or picture.


Describing what happens is so much more lame than making up a scenerio in my head which are always cool and always go really well.

Revelations #1

• After reading the first page of Matt Good's Twitter, I just kind of feel bad for him. Dude, you need to get over your fear of people and find a good woman. I know that bitch fucked you over, but trust me, not all women are like that. I will make you a good dinner (that isn't ravioli or mr. noodles) any day.
• Black cat rubbing up against Twilight. o0o0o00o0o what does it mean?? (I haven't read the book, I borrowed it intending to read it, but I just can't bring myself to start. It's just not my kind of fiction, but I guess I'll give it a try)
• I need a massage. Really badly.
• I miss my Q girls more than almost anyone.

Study, Study, Study

The worst part of graduating from Douglas with my Associate of Arts Degree is that now that I (kind of) know what I want to do with school, it's totally useless except for three courses. What's even worse is the fact that I have to go back to high school to take 5 courses so I can be prepared to go into my field. How weird is it to think that I would be going into sciences? I'm baffled by the thought constantly.

Speaking of high school, I've been graduated for almost three years, and I still miss it. I miss the connections I had with my friends and being able to see them every day (whereas now I rarely ever see anyone unless I bump into them. Working for friendships is too hard), but for what it's worth, I really miss the drama. I have absolutely no drama in my life and I feel like a big lamewad. I was reading one of my journals last night and the last half of it is all drama filled and fun. I guess that's just what happens when we all grow up?

I really need to start going out more often. My work schedule is killing me. Between work and school, I normally have one day off (Fridays usually) which doesn't help me at all because everyone else has normal jobs that go Mon-Fri. Anyways, wah wah wah complaining is a waste of time and no one cares.

I will however complain about this:
Jesse and Vinnie from one of my all time favourite bands (Brand New, duh) were stuck in Seattle after the whole volcano incident in Alaska, so what did they decide to do? Play an impromptu acoustic show the next day (this past saturday). I COULD HAVE GONE TO THIS!!!! But noooo, I had to work. Then on Sunday, my guilty pleasure band was playing a cheap, afternoon, all ages show at the Commodore which I really wanted to see, but couldn't because once again, I had to work. What's really unfortunate? I went to work yesterday feeling really awful and my manager sent me home. I had been discussing calling in sick so much with Jenn so I could go out with her and Julie for Julie's birthday that I made myself sick for real.

Lyphe sux. Oh well, I'm over it. 24 is on tonight and I'm actually in the mood to watch it.

From I Am America (And So Can You):

RE: the Motion Picture Production Code of 1930

"If a scene includes a train entering a tunnel, the tunnel shall not be portrayed as enjoying it"

Apparently my blog would be better if it included some gossip, but I know none and everyone knows I have no imagination, soooo.....

JENNY EATS HAMSTERS AND HERE'S THE PROOF!!

Random Thought:

Do you ever have issues listening to songs because you can't get through them without bawling your eyes out? Well I have a few of those, and I'd just like to say that after almost THREE years, I can finally listen to Truffle Pigs again. I'm still having issues with these ones:

• Generation X-Wing (acoustic)
• Advertising on Police Cars
• You Were Meant For Me
• Fever Dream

PS, I'm not stoked on working all weekend.

RE: Last blog

My good pal (and creeper extraordinaire) Stu has informed me that apparently Red Eye is a satirical news show. If this is true (I meant to stay up last night to watch it, but forgot), it's not really satire, i thought satire was supposed to be intelligent. Oh well.


On a completely different note, I work all weekend and I'm really not pleased. I was super stoked to go to an 80's theme party downtown at Library Square, but no, no, I'm scheduled to work at 830AM on Sunday morning. How awful is that? Especially because there is already someone scheduled for that shift, and the bench area (where all the dough making, etc happens) is full. I guess I'll try and talk my way out of it if my manager is in tomorrow. I'm upset with my job, I thought I would be happy working somewhere where I don't have to interact with customers, but it turns out that means very rare interaction with even my co-workers. AGHH!!!. I'm just frustrated I guess. I hate working. Hello rich men? Where are you?? I'm sick of working. Make me your wife and I will do delicious things for (to) you!!

This Shouldn't Make Me Upset, But it Does.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tcJn5XlbSFk

I don't even know if this is supposed to be serious (which I'm guessing it is because it's from a "legitimate" news station. HAH)
Well basically a synopsis: Some douchebags are sitting around talking about Canada pulling out their troops from Afghanistan for a year because they don't have the manpower to fix tanks, etc, etc, etc. All this clip is is a bunch of apparently very uneducated people throwing punches at Canada. Here's a list of things they say which are faulty:

• No one wears white capris.
• Yes, Canada is fighting a war that's not theirs.
• Yes, Canada shares a border with the US, but there is no way that America is the most powerful country in the "universe". Sorry America, but where exactly do you think you'd be if China wasn't around?
• The RCMP clothing they are talking about is not what RCMP officers wear on a daily basis, or regular basis, or semi-regular basis. The red jacket, brown boots, ugly hat deal is only for the most special or important cases (ex: When a police officer has been shot while on duty). As well, the RCMP aren't the only police in Canada! There are provincial police as well as municipal police which are only affiliated with the RCMP in as they follow the same laws/rules etc. The biggest difference is what's painted on their cars and how much money they make.
• Canada not a smart culture? I'm sorry, is this coming from the same "reporters" and guests who are making these very claims? Ok, thanks for coming out.
• Canada does not rely on the USA as much as the USA thinks we do, and what's even worse is that the average American doesn't realize how much THEY rely on us. We are one of america's biggest trading partners, and without us the economy would be severely hurt.... well hurt even more than it is now... As well, I do recall America owing an incredible amount of money to BC Hydro because of their whole power issue deal a few years back (think California).
• I do believe that the one time America and Canada were in a war together Canada won and America got their White House burned down.

This is all I can do without seeing red. The worst part is that I don't even consider myself a proud Canadian. I hate the Charter of Rights and Freedoms, and I hate the government of the early 80's for being soft in regards to Quebec and the whole Meech Lake Accord issue and other Accords during that time. I don't even know what Canadian pride is, there is so much "multiculturalism" running rampant in this country that Canada itself, before the waves of asian/european immigration in the late 19th/early 20th century. The only thing I am certain about, is that multiculturalism makes for bitter citizens who have been here from birth, and provokes racism.

Ok, I think I'm done. Sorry for that.

You're looking good, just like a snake in the grass

One of these days you're going to break your glass.
Don't bring me down
no, no, no, no, no, no, no.

Most kids grew up on "classic" rock like the beatles, or the stones. I grew up on ELO, the petshop boys and the grease soundtrack. No wonder why I'm so weird.

I AM IN LOVE WITH THIS BOOK

The liquid engineers left the pool heater on too long, and at night, chlorine vapors rose above the plant life of the planet, and i
imagined my flesh,
being inside the pool, being warm, and protected, feeling gravity, but able to moch it as I floated. Would you float with me now, if I asked you, would you jump in the pool and not even bother to strip? Could I strip you down, remove your clothing and we would fall inside the water together?

It scares me.

I don't want to lose you. I can't imagine ever feeling this strongly about anything, or anyone ever again.

This was unexpected, my soul's connection to you.

You stole my loneliness

No one knows that I was wishing for you, a thief, to enter my house of autonomy, that I had locked my doors but my

Windows were open, hoping, but not believing, you would enter.

FYI

I feel as though when reading my blog, it should be done in a quick way? I just did this, I guess being a fast reader, or whatever, and it just makes more sense.

Anyhoo, here's a picture I like, it's basically the theme of all the art in my room.


http://grungegypsy.xanga.com/

Yes, all the art in my room is foggy and of dead trees (or of winter beaches). Whatever. I love my dead trees, they are beautiful, delicate skeletons.

If I had the opportunity to either have a pen and a pad of paper with me, or a computer I would write down all my random thoughts (like the character Dan of Microserfs, but not for the same reasons as him) and see where that takes me. I bet it would either be extremely strange, or totally lame.

PS, I totally had an excellent weekend, and I would really love for a reunion!

Did I Mention??

The 1/2 Alive website doesn't work apparently (pay your bills you fucking bums) so I've had to look for new ways to get my face on the internet (go figure). So with that, I give you thecobrasnake (Mark?). He came up from LA to partake in the festivities of the 2 year anniversary of Blastramp (which one of my favourite dj's, My!Gay!Husband!, is the resident dude who presses play on a macbook) and take pictures. Well, I'm definitely not indie, and I'm DEFINITELY not a hipster, however, I will stick my face infront of a camera lens (by the by, this reminds me - SARAH UPLOAD THOSE PICTURES!) anywhere, no matter how sick I look.

So for your viewing pleasure, me (totally sober) in a bar full of people who are either a) drunk b) on drugs or c) both a and b.

Hi funny bangs and one dimple. Also, resizing fucked the quality. whatever

A Good Quote...

If it wasn't already obvious by my blog up top picture deeler, I love Douglas Coupland. I've read all of his books except for one which was only printed in Japan, in Japanese (shucks). Anyways, I was just reading Microserfs today, and I want to share this quote with you, internet.

enjoy!

RE: falling in love

The two of you start talking about your feelings and your feelings float outside of you like vapours, and the mix together like a fog. Before you realize it, the two of you have become the same mist and you realize you can never return to being just a lone cloud again, because the isolation would be intolerable.

...And when you meet someone and fall in love, and they fall in love with you, you ask them, "Will you take my heart - stains and all?" and they say, "I will." and they ask you the same question, and you say, "I will." too.

Just Stopping By...

To say that I love Iron & Wine. And these lyrics

You will never make me
learn to lay beneath the mountain
Cause I'll only
lie
Down by the waterside at night

I guess that's it. I have time to spare between my classes.

Oh, and I guess this little tidbit;

In my philosophy class I just had, we had to watch a video (VHS of course) and pick out the argument and subarguments. Well, this video was about how eating meat is bad and all the reasons it's bad for you. Good lord, I haven't seen an argument so full of holes in so long. The whole thing looked like it was funded by PETA, awful images of animal cruelty and all. The only thing I thought would be redeeming was this little segment about cow waste. I thought, oh, maybe it will discuss the amount of methane produced by cows and how it's causing a huge problem in the atmosphere (apparently), fueling global warming, blah, blah, blah (I don't want to get started on my stance with global warming. I could write a book with my opinions). But no, it was about how manure is seeping into groundwater causing birth defects. Ok, thanks Erin Brokovich, we've all heard the story before. So enter a very worried "neighbour" (you know she's worried because she uses the word about 15 times within 2 minutes) crying over nitrates in her water causing some birth defect with her child. If it's that much of an issue, you move. I bet she still consumes dairy products.

Ok, that's enough now. Gotta save battery life for when I actually need my computer in class.

Some of Them Want to Abuse You, Some of Them Want to be Abused

I honestly have no idea why I'm still awake, but I'm blogging anyways.

I fell asleep while I was tanning today. It was so incredibly comfortable and relaxing (Hi, Summer? Where are you? I need you ASAP!). I don't even know how I made it through work today, or how I'm even still awake now. The saddest part about all of this is how I wasn't even up THAT late last night. It's just that I was out and didn't sleep at home. I'm too old for that kind of stuff. Give me my bed and a 1030 bedtime please. Anyways, this blog has no real point so I'll make it kind of a reminder of what's up this weekend.

Thursday:

• School
• Tanning @ 4
• Head out to Kits (if Jenn isn't working, which she most likely won't be)
• All you can eat sush on Robson
• Bourbon for the 2 year anniversary of Blastramp

Friday:

• Chill with Jenn, maybe devise new awesome silly plans

Saturday:

• Photoshoot with my Sur-ah downtown hopefully!
• I actually don't work Sunday so I could do something in the evening that doesn't involve watching SNL two hours earlier and passing out before 12.

Friendly Reminder:

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Stay gold, Pony Boy, stay gold.

SNL is on, I Should be Sleeping

I went to my Babi's (grandma's) house tonight and we looked at old slides from when we were all in Prague together. It was great, I'm probably the only person my age who actually enjoys slides and sometimes even prefers them! I love the nostalgia they bring. It's just great.
Also, I invited myself to join my parents on the road trip they've decided to go on this summer. I am super stoked beyond words. I even convinced them to do the drive along the coastal highway so I can see the Oregon coast because I've never been and it's the one place in the states (aside from Montauk) that I really, really, really want to go to. SO YAY!! This means I get to see the amazing beaches, a weird bridge, and the sea lion caves, as well as the dunes. I almost wish we were going now so I could see the beaches in their winter form (which I sometimes prefer over summer beaches). I'm going to bring a bunch of disposable cameras and use those to take pictures. I'm all about that this year I've decided. No more digital, nostalgic photos only (because I got a scanner)
This also reminds me that I STILL need to develop my black and white film from my Minolta. I'm having a hard time bringing myself to do it though. I really wanted to develop it and print the photos myself. Oh well. Maybe the next set.

PS, I'm just totally obsessed with Hide and Seek by Imogen Heap and Kids by MGMT right now. Just sayin'

This is a List of Attractive Males in Bands

Jesse Lacey. Need I say more? Yes. When this man was standing maybe three feet away from me, I saw so awstruck by his man-beauty that I physically could not move. No one has ever done that to me before, or again.


The Lonely Island boys. Please look at Jorma's face. It's just priceless.


Tyson Ritter before the cocaine look. Maybe back when The Last Song or Swing Swing first came out. Also apparently he's a model now? Weird.

Tim Armstrong. No amount of heroin could make this man unnatractive to me.

Jay Malinowski from Bedouin Soundclash. His voice is kind of annoying, but just look at that mug.

And this is all I can think of right now. Time to clean the drool off of my keyboard.

I Don't Like MySpace.

Enough said.

PS, to those whose blogs I creep too often, please update. I mean, what else am I to do with my life.

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Control Yourself, Take Only What You Need From Him

These are some things I'm totally enjoying right now

• English Breakfast/ Earl Grey tea. Tea makes me calm for some reason and I'm quite at ease right now.
• 24
• House
• Kids - MGMT
• The Lonely Island (I haven't been able to get enough of Bing Bong Brothers)
• Not drinking every weekend (Lent is making me stronger and that's good. I'm so incredibly glad I can go out to parties and have a really fun time sober)
• Dumbass (my cat)
• Friends. The show, not my actual friends. This show is the most comforting thing in my life. That's probably really fucked.
• Winter beaches (if it's gorgeous on Friday, I'm going to English Bay)
• Constantly remembering that I'm less than a month away from finishing my courses and graduating!!
• My favourite texting buddy
• Silly, SILLY voicemails from my boys
• Tanning
• Blogs. I'm so obsessed with blogs. I think it's because I'm naturally just a really nosy person and I want to know everything about everyone, even if I don't know the person. I wish all my friends had blogs.

These are some things I'm not quite enjoying right now:

• Having an all white uniform for work. I feel like I should be out lynching. It's awful
• The weather. I can deal with the cold (thank you working in a freezer constantly/my last trip to Alberta), but I CANNOT deal with anymore snow. If I had any amount of money to spend I would take a weekend off and just fly down to LA when the forecast is a good one and just enjoy the sun and come back refreshed.
• I have tons of scratches from work and they are really annoying and sting!
• My knee and its issues
• The fact that Rancid is OPENING for another (shitty) band and when I went to go buy tickets the day after they went onsale, floor seats were already sold out. Sorry, sitting at a Rancid concert just does not compute.
• Brand New never being on tour and how probably my one and only regret is not meeting Jesse Lacey when he was standing 5 feet away from me. No one has ever made me freeze before. He did. It was scary, I couldn't move at all. I was just in total awe of his being.

I'm really glad my dislikes list is fairly petty. This is a good sign. My Momma keeps telling me that I seem in better mood now and have been since I quit the Q for real. I like being in a better mood. It's healthy. I guess I also have my good friend Vitamin D to thank (thank you fake'n'bake. You make me feel so niiiiiice)

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I Just Came Across This

So here I am, creeping on peoples blogs and clicking their links to other blogs, and then clicking their links and I came across this website, http://triangletriangle.com and I'm just minding my own business looking at the pictures when I came across this one:



So how about Grandma puking in a hotel room? I guess shotgunning that beer was too much for her to handle. I don't really have anything else to say about this except that this is probably the best picture I've seen in a really long time. Thank you, internet. I love you

Hi There, Internet

I've decided that when I am interested in something, say, an author, I should really start to look into them a little more. Today while in class, I was searching Douglas Coupland to see which of his books I've yet to read (fyi, there's only one book and not only was it only published in Japan, it's written in Japanese) and on his website was a link to his blog for the New York Times. I thought, JACKPOT! and added it to my RSS feed or whatever it's called, and then started looking at the dates of the blogs written. The latest one was from 2006. Wow. However, I found some pretty dope eye candy and that's always nice. I just love everything about Mr. Coupland.